“Sherlock, when you – when you jumped off St Barts, it – I was – I –” John clears his throat, stops.
Sherlock stares at him, wide-eyed, and then opens his mouth; he wants to stop whatever is making John struggle to speak. His heart is pounding, and he feels dizzy.
“No,” John chokes out, holding up a finger. “No.”
Sherlock shuts his mouth. Stares at John’s hands, his fingers.
“I was –” John stops; growls low in his throat. “Fuck. Fuck this. I was in love with you.” Each word sounds wrenched between his teeth.
Sherlock can’t stop himself looking up; their eyes meet. It is the most painfully intimate thing Sherlock has ever experienced.
John takes a breath. His voice is stronger now. “Since then – since then, things’ve gone wrong,” he says bleakly. “So wrong I don’t know how to fix them.”
Was. Sherlock stares at him, still. Something’s broken, an atmosphere of tension like the hours before a storm. Broken better.
“‘Was’,” says Sherlock, slowly. “You were.”
John looks at him, eyes bleak. “You – when you came back, you treated me – it – like a joke.”
Sherlock shakes his head. “I – didn’t know what else –” Words are betraying him, now; failing to come. He shakes his head again. “Now?” he croaks, at last, past a lump in his throat that physically hurts.
John stares at him for a long, careful moment. “Now I’ve got to do – better,” he says, finally. “It’s hard for me – this stuff. But I can do better. Than I have.” He takes a breath, and when he speaks it’s a dying fall, a forced gasp. “If you –”
“Yes,” Sherlock says, without hesitation. And then he has no idea what else to say.
The idea of this video is to show the whole arc of Sherlock and John’s relationship chronologically only with eye contact – the initial curiosity and suprise, the growing attraction and happiness, the annoyance and the jealousy, the anger and the fear, the pining and the restraint, the pain and the love. I wanted to see if the progression of their relationship could be seen with absolutely no words, just from the way they look at each other. I think it is quite apparent, let me know what you think! In the end I needed 2 songs because they goddamn stare at each other too much.
i can go literal months without even thinking about johnlock and then i come across this one (1) fucking fan video and i mcfuckin lose it for 5 hours straight and have to bury myself in bed with a fanfic crying because this is the most heartbreaking love story ever told and i will Always Be In Hell It is Never Over
“i want to be up there with the two people one person i love and care about most in the world”
s/o to moffat and ben c for showing us sherlock’s exact reaction to a love confession and/or first kiss
Excuse me I think I just felt my heart breaking. This scene destroys me every time. To know that Sherlock died for John and still doesn’t think he’s John’s best friend… that it’s mutual… gah!
Yeah maybe I shouldn’t have watched this when I’m already feeling emotional. He had no idea. He had completely accepted that his dedication, loyalty, and love were one-sided and that’s just … not okay.
You know what else isn’t okay? That scene on the roof with Moriarty, when he’s told his friends are going to die if he doesn’t jump. His friends. He lists them off as if he’s not even sure he should be calling them his friends. John? Yes. Mrs Hudson? Yes. Lestrade? Yes. Yes, Sherlock, they’re your friends. You have friends.
iamjohnlocked4life 